You sustain yourself by the death of your brother. By your qualified love of him do you condemn him to death along with yourself. You are determined to die and take the whole world with you. But no matter how hard you try to obliviate yourself you can never succeed. All of the continuity of space/time is your consciousness of it. Actually, you are destroying and reconstructing the earth each moment in time. You will come to see that these moments are not sequential, but rather exist continuously in your individual state of consciousness.